What to do tonight?
Watch mindless TV?
Stare at Facebook forever?
Check, check, and check (I thank you).
Then, I remembered…yesterday, I stumbled across my journal from Namibia, Africa.
So, I sat down and began reading.
Immediately, I was flooded with small and forgotten memories.
And suddenly, I was sitting in that small, cinderblock room.
With this pen and journal in my hand.
And thinking back on the day.
I remember the feeling of writing today’s journal entry and the emotion behind it.
Then, I listed what the plans are for tomorrow, always feeling nervous excitement and apprehension.
Looking back, almost 4 years later, I’ve come to realize some truths.
Laying in bed at night, apprehensive…happens.
The next day…works.
As I turned the pages and read adventure to adventure,
I saw life unfold, in a beautiful mixture of chaos, struggle, fatigue, heartache, love, compassion and reality.
Lending me these truths tonight:
Uncertainty is ok.
Not knowing is ok.
But, I know each day is new.
I know there more is ahead.
And I know that one day, I will look back (as I am today) and smile.